Samantha Adams ENG-W240 Graban Due: March 1st, 2011

The Gray Area:

Perceptions Associated With Homelessness Are Not Black & White “What is the best part about being homeless?” The paradox this question brought forth actually caught me by surprise and I found myself feeling a bit sheepish after the words left my mouth. I became aware of myself silently wondering, What could possibly be positive, let alone “the best,” about being homeless? In fact, I had just assumed that I would not be given an answer at all. Nonetheless, before I could even consider retracting my question, Mike McNabb, a man experiencing homelessness along with his wife, April, was already feeding me an answer. “Freedom from responsibility,” he began assuredly and quietly, “I would say is the best thing.” I was a bit taken aback at how quickly Mike responded to my question, without hesitation. Why was I so surprised that Mike was able to answer my question, and so promptly? Would any other informant in Mike’s position have answered the same way? These silent questions raised as repercussions of my voiced question were some sort of indication of a clashing of worlds, some sort of misunderstanding

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along the line. Mike’s answer to my question, his responses to my other questions, and his attitude toward his own situation draw attention to the complex mismatching between self-perceptions (inside perceptions) and common other-perceptions (or outside perceptions) associated with individuals experiencing homelessness. Mike sat across from me at a small table in the Shalom Community Center for those experiencing homelessness. We were in a communal sitting area: a room with gray cement floors and walls with a few gray tables scattered around accompanied by small gray plastic chairs. The room was chilly and a little damp, but the sun shone through a nearby window and glass door from the entrance. There was little company today, as the weather was on the warmer side and everyone was most likely out enjoying the sun. The few other guests who stuck around sat at other tables observing us and listening to our conversation. Mike did not seem to notice the spectators, or perhaps he did not care if they were listening. I tried not to let it intimidate me. Mike was wearing a worn-down gray hoodie and jeans that were faded from wear, not from style. When I looked at him, he looked so tired, but this exhaustion seemed to be much deeper than just from lack of sleep. I offered him one of the two cups of coffee that I brought, but he insisted that his wife, April, have it instead. April sat to my left at the table, wearing a Native American style cloak, and eagerly accepted the coffee. Her hair was gray and braided; her eyelids hung heavily, but there was life to her blue eyes. April was louder than Mike when she spoke, but Mike did most of the talking—quietly. Mike was very soft-spoken and calm. He had a sort of unwavering patience that seemed as though it had been painstakingly tested, and had not faltered even yet. A soft smile crept across Mike’s face when he uttered those three words: Freedom of responsibility. My own unspoken questions that were

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provoked by Mike’s unexpected answer still prevailed and were creating a cascade of new questions, such as, Why am I even asking all of these questions in the first place? Why is Mike’s answer so seemingly controversial? Perhaps because even since the Middle Ages, AngloAmericans have stigmatized poor persons in ways that were demeaning and separated them from society (Phelan 323). There were negative attitudes toward those in poverty and a tendency to blame the poor for their circumstances. Even in recent times, although much less harshly, there still exists an inclination in the public to blame the poor for their condition (Phelan 323). Public perception during the early and mid-20th century considered the homeless man living in “skid row” districts of America’s major urban centers as “lazy” and uninterested in permanent work (Shier 14). So it seems the term “homelessness” rarely conjures up any positive emotions, at least not in those who have only “seen and heard” homelessness rather than actually having suffered from it. And yet, on this very day, a man experiencing homelessness tells me, with a smile, that one of the greatest rights humans have fought for throughout history—freedom—is the best thing about homelessness. Mike’s take on homelessness may very well be the sole result of actually living and experiencing homelessness. That is not to say that he is content with his current situation, but he remains hopeful rather than overwhelmingly defeated. It has been shown that stigma negatively influences the emotional well-being of those in society who are homeless (Shier 14). Mike’s ability to find positivity in his all too commonly stigmatized situation may very well be an indication that his own perceptions of homelessness are separated from other-perceptions by a gap that can only be filled through actual experience of homelessness or directly working with those experiencing homelessness.

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The conversation continued on to what, exactly, led Mike to this place in his life. He had not always been homeless, he told me. He came from a family with a mother who was a doctor and a stepfather who was an air traffic controller. This fact in itself challenges other-perceptions (which are often based on common trends), seeing as people in poverty tend to stay poor (Beegle 12). In this case, however, Mike was the first generation in his family to experience poverty, despite his background of a financially comfortable upbringing. How could Mike have ended up where he is today? Otherperceptions of homelessness in America have long stressed laziness, immorality, wanderlust, heavy drinking, and other character deficits as reasons for descending the social class ladder (Lee 254). Contrary to the image given off by the media and culture, recent studies have shown that more than half of Americans not experiencing homelessness are more likely to cite forces out of one’s control and mental illness as the top two underlying causes of homelessness (Lee 257). I asked whether Mike believed that he was experiencing homelessness due to his own choices that he had made leading up to this point or whether he thought homelessness was a burden forced upon him. He did not seem displeased in any way when I confronted him with this inquiry—rather he looked at me thoughtfully, as if no one had ever asked him this before. Mike explained to me that his homelessness was a result of his “tastes” exceeding his budget. My attention was caught, again, by his seemingly unexpected answer. Mike was claiming responsibility for his own circumstances. Mike’s perception of his own causes of homelessness was agreeing with American media. I thought he would have been more defensive, since he had told me earlier that the view others and the media have of homeless individuals is “so unreal and so negative—they think we are all thieves, criminals, lazy people.” I think what many

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forget—myself included in this instance—is that homeless individuals are not deviant, so they do not need to be coerced; they are not so social excluded that they need to be re-skilled (Radley 274). Outsiders often set the homeless apart and make assumptions about how they will act or respond, which perhaps may be why I was so surprised that Mike did not respond defensively. Why should he act any different than a housed person would? Mike also brought up a motorcycle accident he was in before becoming homeless that resulted in a head injury that required hospitalization as well as symptoms such as lack of attention, inability to focus, and forgetfulness. He told me that he was unable to keep a steady job due to these mental deficits. This underlying cause for Mike’s situation corresponds with the aforementioned growing other-perceptions of Americans that cite forces out of one’s control as a main cause of homelessness. Clearly, the relationships between insider perceptions and outsider perceptions—and even between outsider perceptions from different sources—do not unite piece by piece to create any one big picture. There is no simple two-way contradiction between perceptions from homeless individuals and perceptions from housed individuals. We see that Mike falls into step with the conventionalized imagery of his situation. And yet he steps out of line from long-standing assumptions and contributes to the growing awareness that homelessness is not always self-generated. In the midst of an overwhelmingly downtrodden outlook on the causes and experiences of homelessness, this man smiles and savored a freedom of the so often called “burdens” of a financially stable or privileged life. He demonstrates that there is no black and white translating to ‘homelessness’ and ‘housed.’ There is a vast gray area that exists that is homelessness.

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